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Infertility, the gift that keeps on giving…

June 22, 2014 By: Amandacomment

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There are times that I forget about our struggle. There are days and weeks that I don’t think about the fact that I have PCOS. There are times that I don’t yearn for a baby.

But, then there are the times that it comes up.

Sometimes I expect the sorrow.

Other times the grief sneaks up on me.

I have studied grief. And it stinks. It stinks knowing that I have so far to go still.

And I don’t know how to move forward.

I am sad and angry and want to have a massive tantrum.

And I can’t. And it’s something that so few people understand. And those that do likely see my beautiful children & wonder how dare I be sad. But, it’s possible. I know how lucky I am. I am so very grateful for my children. I love them. I wouldn’t take back our journey to a forever family.

But, I do still grieve. I never got the chance to anticipate a baby. I never got to enjoy each day without the fear of them leaving. I look at their beautiful faces in awe. But, there is no part of me.

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