Haven’t really shared with many in real life… You know, since we can’t see anyone in real life right now. Life in the middle of a pandemic is very lonely. And, heck, I don’t know that I have all that many people I talk to when we aren’t in forced seclusion. AND, I highly doubt anyone will see this or read this anyhow. So, I guess this just gives me a chance to spill my guts.
Our oldest is now 18. He has been a legal adult for a month and a half. In that time, he has been working and was going to school. School is closed now though and, even though his was already online, he decided not to do his work. And, I called him on it. I was really mad and I woke him up to tell him so… Then he moved out.
Calling it moving out is soooo wrong though! He didn’t move. He isn’t living anywhere. All of his junk is still here. He is just sleeping on his girlfriend’s couch.
I think that someone is really an adult when they pay all of their own bills. He isn’t paying any of them. He isn’t even helping.
There are so many things that I think and feel about all of this. But, I don’t know if they are right or normal or stupid.
And, the tears have started again… so, I think I will go back to drinking wine and ignoring the fact that a huge chunk of me is out there in the world.