Really struggling with the beast called depression today..
No rhyme or reason, there doesn’t have to be bad in my life for me to feel bad.
And I feel so guilty. It prevents me from being a good wife/mom/friend. Which then makes me feel even worse about me.
My kids don’t deserve a sad mom.
It is just not fair.
And times like this it is the hardest to muster up the strength to even think about fighting back. It feels so lonely, yet I don’t want to allow anyone else in… Nobody should have to feel this way, it’s not a feeling I want to share. So, I try to isolate myself. I try to hide from even myself until I feel a little less painful. I try to just get through and hope that tomorrow has some hope.