If you are my friend, then be my friend. What does that mean to me? Be honest, be kind, be there.
I have been struggling a lot lately. My depression, anxiety and loneliness have taken over my life.
I deactivated my FaceBook account… it just was making me feel worse. I was envious of the lives I was seeing. And I was so sad to have been left out of events.
And it does suck. What hurt the worst, was being excluded. And knowing that was being excluded. I have “friends” who have lied to me or lied by omission. It wasn’t an accident, that can only be blamed once or twice. Nope, it was an active decision. And that sucks.
But, here is the truth. I am not the one who should be sad! I am not the one missing out on *me*. I am loyal and loving and kind and generous. I have a great sense of humor, if you don’t believe me, just listen to me laugh at my own jokes! I can’t cook, but I am crafty and creative. I am always a bit of a mess, but never malicious. I am good to have as a friend. If you missed out and don’t have me as a friend, you are the one who deserves the sympathy.
When I listen to my depression I hear that it’s me.. I am not worthy. I am worthless.
But, I know that’s not true.
And, if you think anything less of me than the fact that I am an awesome human being, you can just keep that shit to yourself and stay away from me.