Are you ready?
I love Pinterest! It’s sort of an obsession… However, you’d never know it based on my pins. I mostly just scroll and scroll. But, I do absorb some ideas.
And to get ready for the 4th we tried a couple
This is the little dude’s shirt. I will attempt a photo of the kids with theirs tomorrow. It was a really easy project & I thought the results were cute.
Then tonight, Bean & I baked cupcakes..
What are you doing to celebrate?
Tomorrow we will avoid the crowds & likely just relax at home, but we’ll have cute shirts on
Could organizing my day have caused more organizing…?
Once again, Pinterest inspired me to tackle my fabric
hoard pile. I have uhlot of fabric. I think that if you want to be a crafter of any sort, you have to be a bit of a hoarder. And it comes in handy… My stash is where I found the fabric that I used as the background for my organizer It also has tons of memories, scraps from hundreds of prior projects.
Anyhow, I think it’s much more manageable now! And I ended up with an empty bin! This is only a fraction of what I have, but look at how pretty it looks now…
One of the things that has cracked me up this summer is seeing a new side of D. He has always been the kid with the most energy. He doesn’t like to just veg out with the tv. But, I had no idea how much he relies (thrives?) on my keeping the family busy.
There are a bunch of blog posts floating around about making your kids play and letting them be bored. And while I agree with that in principle, I think having independent kids is awesome, I keep the kids busy for my own sanity. When we are busy we have less time to trash the house, less energy for fighting, an incentive to get chores done (to get to the fun!)… Basically it works for us. Busy kids = happy mama
Anyhow, D knows we keep busy, but he wants a plan. So, I have made a little Pinterest inspired creation to show him the plan.
Just found this one! Forgot to post the other day…
Well, at least that’s how it feels temperature-wise!
I left the kids with my parents on Wednesday in Flagstaff and went back to see my husband and work for a couple of days and drove back up with the husband last night. The highs in Flagstaff were in the 80′s, Phoenix has been 106-110 or so, and now we’re in Sedona, the highs here are low 90′s.
And I am sure you’ve heard of the “dry heat” of the desert, well, our mountains are the same. I expect the 90′s to be just beautiful.
While I was home the kids have been golfing–mini & at the driving range. They’ve been swimming at least once a day & playing lots of games with Nana. No clue what is planned in Sedona, but I am sure it’ll be fun.
None of us have spent any real time in Sedona before so it’s a big adventure! I can tell you that the drive in was beautiful… I have seen it before & there are photos of the red rock famous world wide, but seeing it again first hand is almost breath taking–makes me wish I brought my real camera instead of my camera.
As I sit here and listen to the screaming kid, I ponder his wails.
Allow me to be a bit snarky while I guess why the wails..
He just realized you really did name him Track.
And he realized that he won’t be able to change that for another 15 years or so.
He is realizing that his mom couldn’t care less about his safety (just a guess by the fact that she’s watching him do all sorts of stupid stuff that’s against the rules & just dangerous on the trampolines).
He just realized the free wifi in her stinks! (And it totally does! I am with him on that one)
He is insanely jealous of sibling set in all matching outfits for no apparent reason. Not the jealously, that is understood.. The 5 matching outfits is a little odd though.
He met a kid with a more unique first name?
And my best guess…?
Because his mom lets him?
Shut that kid up! Or at least try to do something… And, Track? Really? Or did you spell it Traque to be creative?
So, pretty much as soon as I dried my tears & cleaned up after my pity party, I had to ramp it back up again. Sick mama here the last few days.
It is so much easier being sick when your little ones are not so little! Daddy was a totally sweetheart & brought home dinner & roses! And to give you a clue to how bad I felt.. He told me he brought me a gift & I didn’t even get up to investigate. He brought the flowers to me on the couch. I have a good man!
Yesterday the kids enjoyed a nearly full day of video games & relaxing…
And that alone should have had them nominating me as MOTY (Mom of the Year). But, I cannot live with just my illness & laziness pushing me to the top.
So, today I brought them to the trampoline park. You can pass over that MOTY crown now
There are times that I forget about our struggle. There are days and weeks that I don’t think about the fact that I have PCOS. There are times that I don’t yearn for a baby.
But, then there are the times that it comes up.
Sometimes I expect the sorrow.
Other times the grief sneaks up on me.
I have studied grief. And it stinks. It stinks knowing that I have so far to go still.
And I don’t know how to move forward.
I am sad and angry and want to have a massive tantrum.
And I can’t. And it’s something that so few people understand. And those that do likely see my beautiful children & wonder how dare I be sad. But, it’s possible. I know how lucky I am. I am so very grateful for my children. I love them. I wouldn’t take back our journey to a forever family.
But, I do still grieve. I never got the chance to anticipate a baby. I never got to enjoy each day without the fear of them leaving. I look at their beautiful faces in awe. But, there is no part of me.
We just started the next phase of summer vacay.. I am back on my own.
My parents left this morning. While they’re here I have an extra set of eyes and hands and a little energy to borrow. I also get to talk to adults. I think/hope/pray that talking to my children will eventually be like talking with adults, but we aren’t there just yet.
Safe travels to Nana & Papa & extra caffeine for me